May 2, 2012
Like this song. Except... if you watch the video... that is so not my ending. The rain is here. Really.
Being single is sometimes not what I want. Is that selfish? I have just had a bad few days of biting that bitter, cold, silver, armor piercing bullet. I just want out of it though. I WANT TO BE HER. I want to be the one standing in the rain being soaked and and drinking in the still satisfaction of what has come. I want to find joy, holy joy. May it be found in the giving thanks for the things... the now?
I want to be rid of this silliness that comes over me. The radical emotions of a teenage school girl... but wait! I am not a teenage school girl! AHHH... Do I really want to be rid of these emotions that come over me and make me feel this childish? Really? NO! NOT REALLY! WHAT ARE YOU NUTS!!? I dream of this. But I want for all of this, first and for most to be God whom governs this dream.
Am I making sense?
It's raining now God... thank you for the rain.
I do just thank you for what I am now, and what you are doing.